being content in not knowing

funny how we all have a plan for our lives, even as young children

So much of life is an unknown. Right now in my life I feel like the fact that there are unknowns is much more concrete than anything that is actually known. (if that even makes sense) This is invigorating but at times can also come as a struggle. Where am I going with my life? What is God's will for me? 

I wouldn't bet your bottom dollar on solid answers to those questions dear readers, simply because they don't exist yet. That's the thing about unknowns. It's the split moment before the pitcher releases that baseball and you can feel the potential at its peak. It's that time when there are more possibilities than you can count. Literally anything can happen. But if you get excited and swing at just any ball that comes your way, you risk ruining that very potential, wasting it. On the other hand, if you wait out too long, you'll just miss out on every single possibility given to you. So now, will we settle for what is convenient? for what is right now? or will we hold out, endure a little suffering on the front end and break into that untapped potential of our unknowns? I think it's ultimately about trusting God's timing, and not our own. This, dear readers, is why I am content with the unknowns for now at least. Maybe God doesn't want us to know right now, I guess that's what faith is. that's pretty hard. really hard.

God probably looks down on me (and all of humanity) and just shakes his head and thinks goodness, why does it take them so long to figure these things out? don't they know I've got it under control!? 

we are such a foolish species. and to think of all the people that said this exact same thing countless times before me. 

sometimes, it amazes me to think about just how small we actually are.

that's exactly why we've just got to let go and trust the man with the plan