Today was stressful. I've been working on the website for the company and nothing seemed to go right. Then we got bunches of mail to sort through, the scanner wouldn't work, and the paper kept jamming in the copier. These all seem so small, but combined it just made for one of those days (plus it didn't help that I had a headache). The day continued with regular monotony as I got home and prepared dinner. Later that night Ella came screaming/crying holding her hands out towards me. I cradled her in my arms and tried to comfort her. After she calmed down a bit I asked, "Ella what's bothering you?" In between muffled sobs she finally said "Mommy won't let me play with the ipad"... wait what? This four year old child, my own sister, was violently crying about not being able to play around with an ipad? This just disappoints me and goes further to support the theory of humanity's addiction to technology. It made me contemplate the idea of being content. Ella lacked contentment because she was denied the ipad. While this is common for a four year old to get upset about being denied a toy, it made me think. What does it take to find peace with what we are, what we have, even what we are doing at the present moment? I just don't understand. Where do we find contentment? Why do we feel the need to text while we drive rather than simply be content with driving? Why do we feel the need to be constantly stimulated? Why must there always be action? why can't we find peace with sitting in silence and taking in the present situation just as it is?
This brings me back to this previous post, and makes me wonder if we will ever simply be content with our lives without all the bells, whistles, thrills, and frills. (bear with me a bit longer dear readers, these thoughts make me go on rants)
Even at lunch today, I experienced something of this sort. I felt ravenous before lunch. I scarfed down my red beans and rice and sausage as soon as I got it. I finished and still felt hungry. I kept eating. But if I had stopped and been content with the serving of red beans and rice, I would have noticed that I actually was not hungry anymore. Maybe this hunger goes deeper, dearest readers. Maybe this hunger is actually an inner calling for us to reach out and find who we were meant to be by alternatively being content with who we are in the moment.
And I'm afraid I only know one way to satisfy this hunger, this lack of contentment. Scratch that, I'm excited not afraid. Because life is so much more, and when you notice that, there's no way you couldn't be content.
i mean how do we (myself included) not find contentment with this grand adventure we call life??
so dear friends,
lets challenge each other to satisfy that hunger
and quench the thirst.
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