on thinking about being a real person

 right now I'm stressing as a daunting new week begins. I'm at a time where I have a million and one things to do... (doesn't everybody? will it ever stop?) and I know exactly what I have to do, it's all just about finding the time and motivation to do it. The motivation part isn't as difficult, but I'm finding the time thing to be placing a major stress on my life right now. Before this past week I looked at a whole year left of college as a burden, now i'm seeing it more as wait...I need more time! So as I try to catch time and keep it forever, I can see that my efforts are hopeless. 

How do you realize who you are? How do you know who you want to be, what you want to do? What can you do with your time that's important?

I know that these are not answers that will come immediately at first. I'm sure it'll take exploration and after some time in hot pursuit, i think it'll just hit me. I imagine it to be like any design concept process. When first greeted with a project, I spend a day or two thinking... Writing, taking long walks, doodling, pursuing the idea full forced.  Then after I've fully immersed myself in the process, it just hits me and I think dang it's been sitting there all along just waiting to be realized. I had all the pieces, they just were scattered around begging to be put together. That's me now, fully pursuing my purpose in life. Actively and wholeheartedly pursuing because I fully believe that the answer will come through living.


happy day dearest readers, hope your week is filled with good vibes