I just don't know what's wrong today. I feel myself sinking into that hole again. I have a hypothesis. I've said it before, and I'll say it again...I believe that my mood is 100% reliant on the weather/time of year. I looked up my old blog stats from the past year and a half and it showed that my posts have been consistently and noticeably much better (with many more readers and general views) during the spring/summer months than the late fall/winter months. So with the onset of all of this cold weather, this little dip is to be expected I guess. Then again, maybe it's not that at all. maybe it's just the fact that I have oodles and bunches of homework and projects this week and I'm stressed out. or maybe its the fact that I slept through my physics class this morning. or maybe it's that I'm so far away from my family. or maybe it's the stress of making sure next semester's schedule is just right. or maybe it's the pile of laundry I need to do. or maybe its just the fact that it's late and I have an essay looming over my head all day. it's like a little monster eating away at my insides and I don't know why. honestly the only time I was feeling good today was during church celebrating all saints day.
regardless, happiness is a choice. Part of me wants to make this choice but part of me wants to sink in this little hole and sleep. I have so much to be thankful for, I have no reason to be feeling this way.
tomorrow will be better.I've already decided.
now off to finish this bodacious essay!
it's gonna be just ggggggggggggrrrrrrrreat!
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