Being home has been so weird. It's not because I don't love Baton Rouge. I absolutely adore this place, it's where I grew up and where I call home. The best way I'd be able to describe it is to say it's just as if I'm trying to fit into clothes that aren't my size anymore. I know that the only reason these thoughts even occur is just because I'm thinking far too much, and I'm neglecting to actually live. it's a rather selfish thing actually. All of my thoughts since I have been home have been about myself... How I feel, how much I miss clemson, how others think of me now, how I think others think of me now. Dear readers, the list goes on. it's clearly too much thinking about myself. So much thinking about myself that I even forgot who I am (or at least thought so). It's kind of like when you think about a word too long, it becomes so foreign in your mind like you can't even grasp it. And since I've been unable to grasp my life now (so dramatic in my mind... dear goodness) I've definitely slacked from posting. Hopefully, that will change as I find little adventures around Baton Rouge and meet more beautiful people while I continue to nurture the many relationships I am already lucky to have here. I know I need to trust in the Lord to make this summer exactly what He wants it to be.
so here's to thinking about others instead of worrying about our own concerns and... to summer. it is my favorite season afterall.
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