one week left? no...

I'm going to miss seeing lake hartwell this summer. it's only a few months I know... 

Somehow I don't seem to grasp the urgency needed in regards to preparation for upcoming exams, a paper, and a final portfolio. I've tried multiple times, but after spending an insanely inhuman amount of time in the studio last week, I'm burnt out. I'm done. I can't concentrate, and consequently, I can't study worth a lick. Dearest readers, what will I do!? I'm lacking all motivation and all I want to do is stalk myself on facebook just so I can reminisce on this past year. How did it fly by so quickly!? I'm pretty sure all of my friends are tired of me getting all emotional talking about our last week of freshman year, but I just can't help it. This year has been the best of my entire life, and I'm so grateful for the opportunities and friends God has placed in my life. God sure knew what He was doing when He lead me to randomly apply to Clemson (of course He did... I always forget to trust and realize that His plan is 100% perfect). As I was riding in the bed of my friends truck today, I just looked up at the sky and let the wind blow through my hair. I felt completely intoxicated by life and it's grandness. It's crazy the blinders we place on ourselves sometimes. Then you stop to look at the big picture or even the small beautiful things like wind in your hair and just realize how narrowly focused we've been on something so insignificant. At the end of the day, we ultimately know in our souls that life is good, no matter where it has lead us. 

So goodbye freshman year, you've been awfully fun. You've given me many good things like good friends, independence, and a new defined work ethic (thank you studio). You've also given me a few not so good things like a few extra pounds, distance from my family, and a new found sense of partying. But ultimately, life is very very good. I will look back on you very fondly always. Thanks for continuing my journey of self-discovery but still helping me prepare myself for the future,  for giving me self-reliance but still teaching me the importance of trusting God and others, and for teaching me the importance of getting an education but not just a degree. It's been a hell of a run, and I wouldn't trade these memories for the world. 

So here's to changes.

because my life is so much better all because of one big change, the best decision of my life. and even though it's been hard at times, it's definitely been worth it.