just stopping in.

so much work, so little time. 

the only thing that consoles me is the image of 80-something-year-old me sitting in a rocking chair on my front porch enjoying tacos and drinking out of a mason jar as a multitude of grandchildren play in the front lawn. I decided today that I'm going to work my behind off for the first half of my life so I can just chill the second half. painting, running marathons as an old lady, cooking, sitting, laughing, kayaking. it'll be the life. 

that's the only thing getting me through this work now. 

someday it'll all be worth it

right?

stand up for what we need to be

I know yall are tired of hearing about studio... but I opened my pandora, and this was the first song to play. It put things in perspective. This project, this moment, this phase in our lives will pass and then fade into insignificance. So insignificant yet so important. 

how crazzzzzy is that?

so today I'm taking my work on with joy. praise jesus that i am fortunate enough to be able to receive an education. What comes easy won't last long, and what lasts long won't come easy.

studio thoughts, my drug of choice

I can't get out of my mind

but then was I ever even here

what is the purpose of life

why do so many people die with others

yet die so alone.

who am I to say

that my mother loves me more than yours does 

or his or hers or theirs.

why do we care about 

the things that don't matter.

why do we place such a big

emphasis.

on things that are unimportant?

have we forgotten

what the purpose of life is?

I can't find it

can't get it out of my mind.

I thought I saw a glimpse of something

but I suppose curiousity did kill the Kat in the end

didn't it?

today has been a day of many thoughts. what is our purpose? why are we placed here? I've come to learn that the world is selfish and sometimes we get caught up in all of that and start to think that we are more important than others. This hurts my heart dearest readers. Who am I to think that I am better than anyone else on this planet? We deserve nothing. So many people in this world suffer, how many because of me?

so today, dearest friends, let's challenge eachother to love. to just selflessly give to others and go out of our way to make every person we encounter feel important. cause i think that's the only thing that actually matters. but i'm still trying to figure that out.